God is with me...

God is with me- my comfort at all time.

"I will stregthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my victorious right hang." Isaish 41:10

I have no greater friend than God-a friend who is always there to listen, always there to comfort me. When I am troubled, God is with me, listening to my every word.

If I am grieving over the loss of something of someone, God tenderly holds my hand. If the pain I may be experiencing because of the loss seems more than I can bear, God carries my burden for me, loving me so much that i have love to share.

Such pain may not be completely diminished at first, but in time i learn totally and wholehearted rely on God's active presence in my life.

I can draw upon the comfort and strenght of God at any time. And i do.

- daily word, edited by Colleen Zuck

today was a beautiful, beautiful day!

"only good things..."

As i said this weekend

was going to be amazing it was....

* i talked to cara webb ( my camp councelor & someone i love and admire) on the phone and read something i wrote about her.... boy, how much i missed that voice of hers.

* i met someone new.

* i hung out with two of my loves.

* went to alison's party.

* slept over shannon's and had some great conversation.
* went to church.

* my cousins are the bible class teachers and having them teach me words of God is amazing. SO GREATFUL!

* learned something new

* hung out at kari's for a bit with my whole church family... <3>

anyways, even when i doubt something... i love having people in my life that show me a reason not to... God shines through all people... some more than others and i thank him for that each and every day.

i love him.

tomorrow,

i'm waking up.

NO SCHOOOOOL!

woot woot.

i'm gonna call kari. and i'm spending some of the day with her.

i'm wicked excited.

* i hope for the best.

let me just say...

TODAY IS GOING TO BE...
AMAZING!

SUGARBOOGER!

i could be the happiest i've ever been... and talking to you can still light up my face beyong belief.
my cousin, kari, as many know is my favorite person in the world. she makes everything better. she was there when the rest of the world walked out and has continued from that day on, just being there for me, making me smile, listening to me be a witch and even when im a crap to her she always still loves me.
she's taught me so much, and the reason i gave life a real shot is because of her.
she pushes me... and i'm so blessed for that. because of her i am who i am.
if something happens.. good, bad, lifechanging or just something i need to say... it's her i tell.
i trust her with everything.
i'm so thankful God has given me someone like her. She's a true true blessing to me...
and i'm lucky i will get to be with her forever.
i love you sugarbooger.
thanks for always making me smile.

relax

this song... makes me cry... but happy tears.
tonight, a friday night. i'm choosing to stay home and just hangout.
i rarely ever do that... so i'm kinda excited.
today was such a beautiful day, even with the rain.
it's so relaxing.

=)

STUDY STUDY STUDY...

just letting you know that studying sucks bologna!
ahhh i hate it...
hhahaha sorry mr.buxton!

just letting you knoww....*

jasmine doak... just letting you know that i love you so much and you make me happy. =)


hahah you're sitting to the left of me on the next computer in math class... that makes me even more happy. =)

OOH AHH

i love this song!

bright, beautiful day...

FRUITLOOP!

let me just say it's always okay to goof off every once in awhile... and today i did with kelsey lynch and shannon dewey and it was so much fun. they made my day full of sunshine.

anyways....

last night for the first time i felt like i was two steps ahead of the game....

my friend called me and we hadn't talked talked in awhile.. so we did. she told me her issues then told me that she wasn't doing too well in school.

i set it down for her the way i think...

which is...

have you ever accomplished something? even the littlest thing and been so proud of yourself? having others proud of you? isn't that such an overwhelming feeling?

to me it's one of the best. it modivates me more than anything to know that i can actually finish this with a job well done and it's gonna be worth it!

& after i felt it a couple times over and over again there was no stopping me.

even if i have to be the one that is there for her in the end.. and is proud of her... i will be.

anyone who trys at something that is difficult for them needs a pat on the back!

* giving things a change totally helps you get somewhere.

she told me i helped her a lot... and she asked me to help her with her homework... and she did it.

she tried and i couldn't be more proud of her.... =)

THEN!

today... wednesday! one of my favorite days of the week because i have bible class... it was great. all the teens came over my cousin's house and we had dinner together then just hung out. afterwards, we went to bible class and learned about the holy spirit.

& it got me thinking what the holy spirit really does for me...

it was nice to know and think about... and how thankful i am

it made it a perfect ending to a bright, beautiful day. =)

SMILE & A PRAYER!

today...
i woke up.... smiled and prayed....
no matter what obstacles i come over today i know i can occomplish them.
with a little encouragment from a friend(cara)... i have the little push i needed to just be open with today.
it's going to be beautiful.... i can jut feel it...
and today i'm hoping to talk to cara on the phone so i can read her the paper i wrote about her... if all works out... i'll be a very, super duper happy camper.
=)

i love you.

she is...

This is a poem i wrote awhile ago... today i found it and thought i'd share it.
<3

She is the girl who blows kisses to the sun and winks to the moon.
No matter what, she knows that it will be better soon.
She lets her heart speak stronger than her words.
Knowing to never to give up, for she believes in the beauty of her dreams.
She writes to tell her story, and reads to fall in the arms of others.
Letting herself have a heart full of smiles and a spirit worth a million hugs.
She loves with everything within her as if it were her last show.
Making her own luck, she takes chances that fill her with tears of happiness.
She is shinning in her tracks, but doesn’t look back until she is gone.
People can’t make her do anything, but lovers can make her fall far.
She couldn’t ask for more with all God has given her, she knows each moment is worth saving.
Always, always dancing to her own song, a song that has a true meaning.
She may be stronger than anything, at least that’s what she believes.
For doing her best every day, she can smile as she sleeps.
She is, and always will be, the girl I call me.

BOW CHICKA WOW WOW

ohhhh golly gee. this morning i woke up feeling terrible. yesterday, even though is was fabulous, took me for a douzy. i'm still sick. it stinks but i'm really happy. not really sure why. =)

anyways, God gave me such a beautiful gift yesterday... and it was spending the entire day with my chuch family. it was so great to fellowship and get to know each other a little more. even after i left i couldn't get enough of how amazing our Lord is. I went for a walk on east matunuck beach. praising and just loving the sunset he allows me to see. it was pure beauty.

=)

i love you.

" THAT PUMPS ME UP..."

have you ever wondered why?
asking why gets you wondering, asking again gives you an answer, asking again gets you deeper, and asking again gives you the truth.
my global teacher was trying to teach us a new way to put more thought in our writing. he asked a question looked at you, you said why, then the person behind you answered what they thought. then, the person behind them said why, and the person behind that person answered what they thought. the whole class went and we got so into thought and when it came down to it there was so much detail behind the answer why.
it was a fabulous class lesson.


today i wondered...
what is it about someone that makes you miss them?
i went on and on and on...
coming up with an answer then asking why again...
& i think the true answer to me is...
when you love someone enough you can't help but miss them. even when they're with you the feeling within you is so full of warmth that you're never wanting it to leave.
the smile on your face and the tears of happiness in your eyes are maybe because you actually wonder why do i have them to miss? you're caught up on how lucky you are to have been given someone you love, that touched you enough that you can say " i miss you."
to me missing someone is the greatest love.
it's showing that person that they mean something to you... deep within. =)

i may be mistaken, don't get me wrong... but to me... this is how i feel.


anyways, today was nice. i hung out with both my sisters. it was nice seeing and getting to spend time with them. i love them so much. although, i am terribly sick and it hurts even to talk i can't complain about today because it was amazing.

at the end of today, i wasn't feeling too good. then, cara came to the rescue. she is someone i look up to with no end. she has given me so much love and encouragment that not having seen her for a little bit makes me sad. i miss her a lot... and if there was any way i could see her i would. just to give her a hug she deserves. i even received a letter in the mail from her today... then got to talk to her. i was overwhelmed with the love from her. she is a true,true blessing to me. if you were to ask me at least one person who's had an amazing impact of my life and touched me so deeply it would be her.
i hope she knows that having the experience of meeting her was one of the best things that has ever happened to me.
" she's the type of person i feel like the whole world should know..." ( coming from a paper i wrote about her)
you pump me up everytime i think about how greatful i am to know and have someone like you in my life. i love you cara, i really do.



thank you God for giving me people to miss, and for giving me people who love me enough to miss me.
that's a true blessing in itself....

burr it's cold in here....

GOOD MORNING SUNSHINES!

i love football games. i really do. they are so much fun... and yesterday, even though i was as sick as a dog i went. =)

anyways, today i had plans to fully clean and organize my room.... but i am way too sick. coming to the computer was even a hassel. it's terrible. i think i might try to get something accopmlished because sitting down is the most boring thing i could ever do.

hopefully, i get better by tonight. =)

i hope everyone has a really good day.

FOREVER & ALWAYS BELIVE!

"GOD, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can and the Wisdom to know the difference.

Living ONE DAY AT A TIME; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardship as the pathway to peace...." *Reinhold Neibuhr

I'm not going to lie...

last year was a rough start to highschool...and even before that... i basically thought there was so much more important things to life than school... socializing was my life.

this year! i'm the same Billie Jo with a whole different perspective. i was put in classes this year that reflected my efforts of last year ( the capable, but not willing Billie Jo). I took a stand and knew i could do better, thanks to my life changing summer. I am now in higher levels and difficult classes. yes, it's a true challenge, but today i applied myself... and i did it. i came out strong.

* having a positive attitude changes everything.... don't just trick your mind into thinking positive... actually believe it.

if you're reading this thinking yea, okay.... that works for you.. but whatever. STOP! take my word for it... and believe. life isn't always easy... but trust me you'll live.

God doesn't give you things you are unable to handle!

" believe in yourself and all that you do. believe in the goals that you strive to pursue. believe in the friends that believe in you too, forever and always believe." ( from a card my mother gave me)

I bet by with a little help from my friends....

today....

oh boy, was it beautiful. i hung out with two of my bestest friends ever and we had some good fun.

*i listened to my own goal for the day... and i let go of something i needed to! i'm proud that i was able to do that and it feels good to just let go!

later on today i went over my cousin's house and had a good conversation with her. she's the person i go to when i need guidence. she gives me some of the best advice i've ever recieved. =)

anyways, after our lil talk we went to bible class and it was cool. One of my favorite things in the world is to sing and praise God. it really is. i love it.

anyways, after that she shared with me some of her favorite "jammin' out" music. it's always fun when people i look up to share little things like that with me. =) & she let me put the music on my ipod so i'm happy now that i can listen to it and think of her.

to end my amazing day...

i talked to someone i absolutley love on the phone for the first time today. she's prob one of my best friends and i don't care if we've only met once. EB is amazing and i love her. i can't wait to hang out with her soon & talk to her on the phone tomorrow..... trust me she's amazing.

each and every day God blesses me to learn and experience something new... =)

it's a wonderful thing...

if it's yours it will come back to you...

Good Morning!

today is a start to a beautiful day... i can just feel it.

last night when i was thanking God for the things he has given me...man, it went on forever. i was so overwhelmed when i actually thought about how amazing it is to have everything i've been given. =)

yes, i may not have everything... but having everything is overrated!

so i say to you for today....

take a deep breath and let it go.

something. it could be the littlest thing, or something you've been holding on to for awhile. but try and just let it go today... yes today, not tomorrow, today!

bonne chance!

makes me geek*

i'm getting ready to go read and end my day...
i just wanted to share this video because it makes me geek out... and was one of my favorite days ever...

* also i'd just like to give a shout of to cara w.....i just want to wish you luck my dear with everything in the near future... i know your life is going to get a little hetic and i just want you to know that you'll always be in my thoughts. you're amazing and i think where you're headed now is the best place you can be... and i'm so glad God has graced you with the opportunity. i love you.

it's not a "goodbye" it's a "see ya later!"

i'm starting this with an end to a beautiful, life changing summer and with me a hope for a bright year ahead....

goals I accomplished:
-becoming closer to God
-growing spiritually
-just being 14
-letting go of the past
-thinking in a whole new,positive perspective
-listening instead of just hearing
-knowing my full potential
-loving who i am and everyone in this life with me
-many many more.


this summer i experienced some amazing experiences...
at the start of my summer i was just becoming involved with my church and what i found out was that a youth group from tennessee was coming down. with the encouragment of a dear friend from church i hung out with them for the week. it was my first true christian experience. in fact, my first devo was on top of the tower off of route 1... unforgettable feeling. they helped realize that i was a follower of Jesus....











later on in the summer i encountered a beautiful week of camp TRCC which was one of the most amazing blessings. my favorite cousin, kari went there are a kid and was a coucelor when she was older. she was actually the person who introduced me to God. becuase of her i met new christian friends who impacted my life completely. it was there that i knew where i wanted to truly start living my lifewith God. everything was a fun lesson and i am so greatful that i had a chance to partake in such a thing. thanks so much for inspiring and encouraging me to go sugarbooger(kari), i love you.

another highlight of my summer was spending a month in arizona with my cousins.

not knowing them too well i went with an open mind hoping to find some comfort in their arms... and that i did. i became really close to my cousin, misty. we started talking through myspace and next thing ya know i was on a place cross country to stay with her. she really impacted my life. she let me into her life experienes, secrets and lessons. she was the one that looked me in the eye telling me i don't want you to waste your time... you'll never get it back... you're 14 you should be having fun.... i will love her till forever just because she taught me that.=)


anyways with a lil into of my amazingly beautiful summer... i'm hoping for the best this year and know that any obstacle i come across i know i can over come....<3