i dont like that i had a nonstop day, but still feel as if i've accomplished nothing.
my heart is weak.
i need reassurence, sweet Jesus.

how i feel today.

i love.
its beautiful, powerful and worth all my words.

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"I want to have a lasting experience of God, " I told him. "Sometimes i feel like i understand the divinity of this world, but then i lose it because i get distracted by my petty desires and fears. I want to be with God all the time. But i don't want to be a monk, or totally give up wordily pleasures. I guess what i want is to learn how to live in this world and enjoy its delights, but also devote myself to God."
Ketut said he could answer my question with a picture. He showed me a sketch he'd drawn once during meditation. It was an androgynous human figure, standing up, hands clasped in prayer. But this figure had four legs, and no head. Where the head should have been, there was only a wild foliage of ferns and flowers. There was a small, smiling face drawn over the heart.
" To find the balance you want," Ketut spoke through his translator, "this is what you must become. You must keep your feet grounded so firmly on the earth that it's like you have four legs, instead of two. That way, you can stay in the world. But you must stop looking at the world through your head. You must look through your heart instead. That way, you will know God."

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so, i have this intense feeling that last only a few seconds.
when i think something random and it spontaneously makes me think several times throughout the day;
that same day or the next that same thought happens.
no matter what it is.
the quick feeling on impulse, it is real.
it's something strong, it happens on occasion.
it's deep and i feel intune with something magnifecent when it occurs.


it happened today.
i'm finally feeling like myself again.
aum...

alright, alright, alright

things are sent from above.

you and me were sent to fall in love.

things always have a way of working out.

you and me always having hope.

things happen to people on what they put out there.

you and me think what happens, happens.

things are put together,

to make you and me something better.

sweet 16

billie jo:beej:girlypurly

i'm here.

it's spectacular.

now, i wanna see the world.

16 years is come and gone

and now i'm ready to break free.

loud,different and beautiful.