today:

i slept in.
went for a walk in the snow.
blasted music.
prayed.
wrote.
cleaned.
prayed.
made some art.
& wrote some more.


i think i realized one of my biggest fears.

---> i talk about time, often. & the thing is, i'm not scared of time. i'm scared that in the time i have, i'll forget. i'll forget to tell someone how much they mean to me. i'll forget how to be true to myself. i'll forget to do something i have always wanted to.

so i normally strive to pursue that everyday when i wake up.

sometimes it's overpowering,sometimes i loose control, but most of the time i'm just right.

but no matter how hard i try, or let go.
it's still there.


i wonder what it will take...

oh well.


God bless you.