up the butt

up the butt
is something i say too much as of recent weeks.

also,
-i am oh so stressed about an English draft that is due in two days.
-the lack of sleep i've added upon myself in the last 5 days.
-the up the butt portfolio that it legitimately causing me to freak out.
-packing for Costa Rica and not having everything i'd like to have.
-i have to pretend to be a Islamic fundamentalist and write a newspaper article saying how i look at the "freedom" of the U.S.
-how i would love to see Vikki before i leave Thursday morning at 2:00 AM
-i reacted to my hepatitis A shot i had for this glorious trip i'm going on & i had an allergic reaction causing hives to spread all over my body, not only once, or twice, but for the third time today...
it's the biggest annoyance at the moment.

my smiles fading
my heart is weak.

i want to curl up in a ball and cry.
i want to scream.